Letter to my 15-year old self

Hi pinks!
This is you-from the future..I know you don’t like your nickname but it will give you comfort and memory of a time filled with innocence, books and dreams… don’t worry, your dreams are still intact, in fact many have been realized and some gotten over with grace and many constantly evolving and in the making.. I am happy to report that there are still a lot of books future-you has and wants to read..and yes, now you have the means to buy them too but time is a constraint.. However, something nice called audio books have come up in the market.. They are not as good as the real deal..but they save time and you can still enjoy a good book this way… yes, innocence is something that will go soon so hang on to it, for however long you can.
I know you worry a lot..about the future..don’t do so.. Let me tell you worrying ruins your present.. Future is better in so many ways yet sadder in other ways... happier in so many ways yet poorer in other ways.. An older person recently told me that life is such.. So do not worry.. You may not have many resources today but you have the drive.. You will get everything you want..some things may take some time.. And somethings you may not want anymore with time…
A lot of people are putting you down now based on how you look.. Do not let it affect how you feel about yourself.. Remember, a smart person is intimidating to many.. They do this to you to hide their own insecurity.. move on.. You will meet many wonderful, secure, amazing people in your life..most of whom will remain your friends for a long time to come (yes even in the future)...you will see their trials and tribulations and they will be witness to yours… Also, yes, there is a special someone too.. Better than you ever imagined.. So hang in there and go through your innocent crushes and heart-breaks for now…enjoy being a girl..a young person...accept the way you look..there is nothing wrong with you.
You must be excited about the internet center that opened up near home.. I know you try to open rediff and sify and it takes almost 5 whole minutes for a page to load.. I know it is frustrating but enjoy the abeyance.. You will miss it later when technology is so fast and you struggle to keep up and multitask efficiently.
Take care of your health.. I know that right now it is not a focus.. However small steps in the right direction will take you a long way.. Do not fear being alone.. you are in good company  There is no greater way to introspect, reflect, unlearn and learn, self-care and love, experience and live than the times spent with self. Do not self-doubt...you will accomplish everything you set your heart and mind upon..you will have many adventures including working, studying abroad, travelling alone, trekking, living alone, looking at snow for the first time and even a freaking Himalayan trek!
Life has more adventure than an Enid Blyton book and magic than the Harry Potter world - as long as you keep looking for it repeatedly and tirelessly  For now, enjoy the safe haven that is our school library 

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